The world laughs, i cry,
the world is happy, i’m utterly troubled and confused.
The world enjoys, i weep, hold on to boundless pain and torture, all unrevealed.
Being Happy or not is upto you…No one could ever be blamed for your situation because our thoughts and our actions are solely responsible for whatever situation we are in now…If you think there are any negative thoughts going on in your mind, first eliminate them. As far as I know, they are the most dangerous things to have in our mind. They can take us from something to nothing…And don’t be happy for any particular reason because such happiness gets faded away when the reason is gone. Be happy without any reason. You’ll be happy forever…I can suggest a principle for being happy…Do a lot and expect little…That should make a huge difference in our life….You can try that if wud like…
All that you have tried to tell me perhaps applies to normal people. Now that I consider myself psychologically deranged, I think I will have to wait till I become near normal to try to think about what you wanted to say.
I actually half wrote to you, but finally could make no sense of my own mail–so deleted it in disgust.
I think I’m fine now– I mean, out of emotional turbulence– able to think, act and behave sane. But still, I think I’m out of the problems created by the original problem, but not out of the original problem proper. I think I really need someone…
I mean, that ‘someone’ may not give me a solution, but perhaps trying to sort things out might help me get clear about what’s really bothering me.
Yeah I desperately need someone who’s a bit wiser than I, but open enough to understand a brain so stupid as mine…
someone who wouldn’t start scolding or giving lectures before he understands whats really going on in my mind, and around myself– And what I am really in need of. I’m fed up, honestly, with all my vain, futile and failed attempts of trying to speak myself out with all MY people. I mean, I want someone who wouldn’ t add to my disgust.
Kash koi aisa machine or man, (living or dead!) hoga jo mere andar jo bhi chal raha hai, woh sab kuch jaansakta hai, and at the same time, jo main abhi samajh nahi paa rahi hun woh bhi…
If I ever feel like writing to you again, can I?You dont need to read it… will you just let it drop by your mailbox? It gives me some solace, I think.. .. ..
I’m extremely sorry, I was too busy even to reply you…
I was reading your mails and posts on my mobile now and then, but was too busy to answer them, I swear. To add to my disgust, my laptop crashed and my phone would frustate me if I attempt to write something… One day I struggled for one and half hour to type a mail to my friend— huh!
Not fine, honestly. but too busy even to feel bad about it… too busy even to think over it again… and this frustates me even more…
I was talking about an ideal person whom I actually needed at that moment. Dont know why, but blogs and my pen and paper started to seem insufficient… I needed someone whom I can talk to… Actually those ideal ‘someone’s’ exist– more than one (you included)– but none available. B’coz of thousands of reasons, my stupid tendencies constituting more than half of them…
Honestly I still need someone…
But not sure what I’ll talk once i find him/her… I think I need many hours… coz I have a lot lot many complaints and ‘mishaps’—- all too silly stupid small— too small to consider significant, And too many to enumerate at once…
Hey, will I be allowed to come to your place for 2 or 3 days? I mean by the people of your college? You need not go on a leave, I will come with you to your duties, will work with you as well—– I just want to spend a loooooooooooooooooooooooooot of time with you. will they mind if some stranger stays will you all the night on a duty day in their hospital? will they mind if their patients receive treatment from someone who doesnt belong to them in ‘their’ hospital?
Being Happy or not is upto you…No one could ever be blamed for your situation because our thoughts and our actions are solely responsible for whatever situation we are in now…If you think there are any negative thoughts going on in your mind, first eliminate them. As far as I know, they are the most dangerous things to have in our mind. They can take us from something to nothing…And don’t be happy for any particular reason because such happiness gets faded away when the reason is gone. Be happy without any reason. You’ll be happy forever…I can suggest a principle for being happy…Do a lot and expect little…That should make a huge difference in our life….You can try that if wud like…
Regards,
Satheesh.
All that you have tried to tell me perhaps applies to normal people. Now that I consider myself psychologically deranged, I think I will have to wait till I become near normal to try to think about what you wanted to say.
any way, thanks
Why so troubled, friend?
Can I help?
I actually half wrote to you, but finally could make no sense of my own mail–so deleted it in disgust.
I think I’m fine now– I mean, out of emotional turbulence– able to think, act and behave sane. But still, I think I’m out of the problems created by the original problem, but not out of the original problem proper. I think I really need someone…
I mean, that ‘someone’ may not give me a solution, but perhaps trying to sort things out might help me get clear about what’s really bothering me.
Yeah I desperately need someone who’s a bit wiser than I, but open enough to understand a brain so stupid as mine…
someone who wouldn’t start scolding or giving lectures before he understands whats really going on in my mind, and around myself– And what I am really in need of. I’m fed up, honestly, with all my vain, futile and failed attempts of trying to speak myself out with all MY people. I mean, I want someone who wouldn’ t add to my disgust.
Kash koi aisa machine or man, (living or dead!) hoga jo mere andar jo bhi chal raha hai, woh sab kuch jaansakta hai, and at the same time, jo main abhi samajh nahi paa rahi hun woh bhi…
If I ever feel like writing to you again, can I?You dont need to read it… will you just let it drop by your mailbox? It gives me some solace, I think.. .. ..
Hi akhila,
by all means.
You have my email, I guess.
Not all problems in life can be easily fixed like installing Windows on a PC (remember?). But that does not mean they cannot be shared.
Hey, write whenever you feel. Honest.
Just to say hi and hope you are well.
I’m extremely sorry, I was too busy even to reply you…
I was reading your mails and posts on my mobile now and then, but was too busy to answer them, I swear. To add to my disgust, my laptop crashed and my phone would frustate me if I attempt to write something… One day I struggled for one and half hour to type a mail to my friend— huh!
Not fine, honestly. but too busy even to feel bad about it… too busy even to think over it again… and this frustates me even more…
sorry sir, again…
i dont know if its appropriate to ask…… but am i eligible to know who that someone? i dont mean to offend u…. its just out of curiosity
I was talking about an ideal person whom I actually needed at that moment. Dont know why, but blogs and my pen and paper started to seem insufficient… I needed someone whom I can talk to… Actually those ideal ‘someone’s’ exist– more than one (you included)– but none available. B’coz of thousands of reasons, my stupid tendencies constituting more than half of them…
Honestly I still need someone…
But not sure what I’ll talk once i find him/her… I think I need many hours… coz I have a lot lot many complaints and ‘mishaps’—- all too silly stupid small— too small to consider significant, And too many to enumerate at once…
Hey, will I be allowed to come to your place for 2 or 3 days? I mean by the people of your college? You need not go on a leave, I will come with you to your duties, will work with you as well—– I just want to spend a loooooooooooooooooooooooooot of time with you. will they mind if some stranger stays will you all the night on a duty day in their hospital? will they mind if their patients receive treatment from someone who doesnt belong to them in ‘their’ hospital?
If it is actually possible will you agree for it?