When the celebrations began, I decided not to involve in ANY event– Right from inauguration till the last program.
The next day, I gave myself an exception..I told myself that I would play mixed doubles in carroms and nothing else. Then the number of exceptions became three–I added my name to the participant list for teams cricket and Treasure hunt…
That didn’t end there either!
Now I am the coordinator for the entire cultural programmes.
I am the one who takes care of lists, schedules the events, coordinates the activities of the participants of all batches–I dont know what else I need to do bearing the title of a coordinator…
I didn’t want to participate…I have no interest, absolutely no interest, in participation. I dont know the reason…Or perhaps I know–I think I can give two explanations though I am not sure about the right one among them.
Firstly, I am not ready to lose time. I want to study. I want to put as much effort and time as possible into my academics. I want to improve, desperately, and I wanted to invest every moment possible for its very sake.
Second cause, probably, is depression. Or inferiority, perhaps! When I sat down to think what I can do, I got no answer. I didn’t feel like participating in any competition. I was sure, cock sure, that I can do nothing. I was not even sure of striking a coin into the hole when I was playing carroms. I was gloomy all the time, all these days…. Perhaps, I would be right if I say that i didn’t dare to participate.
but now, I dont regret.
I have given myself enough time to stay gloomy.
I have given myself enough time to ponder over worthless thoughts
I was patient enouth to tolerate silly excuses.
I will no longer let everything go on like this.
To fail is not a sin.
To fail to try is a sin. An unforgivable sin.
I am happy now that i am involved in the job.
I am happy that I , now, realized that nothing is worse than being idle.
I am glad that I will never ever again feel like staying passive. I dread it.
I am back again!!
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Lost mixed doubles. Because of me, I know! Too many minuses on the verge of victory–Its all my fault… 
. Desh dissappointed 
Teen’s cricket or team’s cricket, I dont know! With all its stupid rules, Our team– (of 6) with me who never knew how to hold a bat, won the game against our juniors–when 3 of 6 in the opponent’s team were players of our college’s main team!!
Treasure hunt: Managed to chase 16 clues out of 21 before someone made it to the end! Too far from the goal!!!
In addition,
participated in slow bike race. Lost, ofcourse, but happy 
