Consider a typical day in life… You do something, spend it… And at the end of the day, you find yourself too exhausted(oh I don’t mean pure physical exhaustion, where A few hours of uninterrupted sound sleep will bring back your vigor, But that is not what I refer to. I talk about the inner fruits. I talk about what you feel, inside..).
You find all your energy and vigor drained out… you feel no longer good about your day…
If you look back, you find nothing to feel happy about, nothing to feel proud about, nothing to rejoice about. Only dull and grey shades of gloominess, pain and regret remain.
You were busy all the day, never stayed idle for a single moment, but still you find it empty. You find it blank. … … … … … … … ..
That only means that, all the day, you were engaged with some stupid task that drains all your energy, but gives nothing in return. Instead makes you feel tired, tense, lost…Huh!
Oh god! How did I survive like this for 2 years?!!!
The real I... 
I think such days are very common for people belonging to our profession. Ofcourse,may even happen with other people. Especially I’ve had many such days in my UG Life. I’ve compromised in my Life at times. Those might be my Huge Mistakes. And the fact here is that this feeling of Exhaustion and Dissatisfaction is inevitable during our exams. Just have a casual talk for 10 min or so with your friends or family members,whenever you get such a feeling. And you might feel better. Hope you do well in your exams.
In that sense, you are right. I feel like doing the same in such a situation—I mean spending some time with my friends and family—- But most of the times none will be available for me when I need them the most (I’m too bad at making relations but the best in losing them!!) Only option left for me is a pen and paper.
I tend to prefer paper to people. It has become a habit now!
So when I feel bad and dissatisfied, I turn all my frustation into words and transfer it on to paper… sometimes on to my blog. I feel free and fresh, full of energy again to resume my job!!
As about this post, that was not what I exactly meant. I actually wasted the day. Its is not the kind of frustation you get when you start a task and work on it the entire day but still find it incomplete at the end of day.
I was writing about wasting the day on some other worthless task which was in no way connected to my work, and when the day ends, I realize that I had something which I needed to get done, but I wasted my time on something—- And, so, the work still remains undone, but the day passed away!!
Its wrath. Its pain. Its regret. Its drained time and energy, without any work done.
I find that the most satisfying way to spend a day is by helping others. It tends to leave you felling accomplished when your laying in bed at night. It seems like you actually got something done.