I feel tensed…
as if something is chasing me from behind and I am running for my life..
This is true probably, I am running away from my master..my mind..that craves for recognition and perfection. I cant oppose it..I cannot go along with it either..!! Strange..isn’t it?? True indeed!
I witness eternal conflict between my brain and my heart…between intuition and intellect..
All the fight..All the conflict is about 2 important aspects of my life-
my goal.. which demands all my time for itself and my whims, desires, fancies and fantasies…That have been a part of my life since I started thinking..
I have been balancing both the sides all these years…but It has become difficult now. I wish a day had 28 hours instead of 24!!I am not able to manage everything…doing everything I want, going everywhere I want, reading everything I like, Listening to everything that interests me…literally there is no end to the list!! And 24 hours a day are barely sufficient for all these.. 🙂
Dont know if I am being crazy in thinking like this…but I cant help it. I strongly believe that by the time I finish my graduation[in 3years or so], nothing would be as they are now. Right now, I have no responsibilities, and no restrictions as such..I am free to live myself. All my time is at MY disposal and so…This IS the right time to learn everything I need to learn..and everything I want to learn. And with ‘skill’ as my only asset I have to set out..to fulfil my ambition…that has brought me here to the field of medicine..far away from my dream world of Aeronautics…
The real I... 
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