Hey hey hey
Where am I going, what am I doing?

I dunno. Oh no, I think I know. Only that I’ve become a bit lazy. NO a lot more times lazy. So lazy that I’m ready to forget all my dreams, put aside all my desires. OH I HAVE DECIDED TO ABANDON MYSELF???

I dont know what all this is.
Its as if I am searching for a place to hide myself and my thoughts. Its like I wanted an area where I can write and talk anything…ANYTHING without anyone or anything coming into my stupid sesses to stop me.
I know this is my place.
I know what rules I’ve given to myself when I started this blog. I’m glad that I am following them to this day.
Perhaps the only thing about me that I can show to myself and this world as something that I have ‘accomplished’.

I broke all the rules I had once put for myself in my life.
I failed in ALL my plans
I betrayed ALL my relations
I hate myself, and I have absolutely NO reason to love myself.
But after all its me, and I still love the fact that something called I exists. Oh Yeah, I am happy that I’m alive.. and that I still have this life to live. Perhaps thats the only reason that saves me when I’m depressed, when I can no longer stand myself.

I dont know if I am talking sense. I mean, I dont know if it makes sense to those who read…

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